In My Solitaries

the poems of R. Blade
Copyright ©1999 by R. Blade All Rights Reserved

rblade@sbcglobal.net

Contents

Bibee      not God but fertility drugs

Boxers         mismatched boxers

Bride         nuns in convents

Clamming        digging for clams

Concert         from sound to sight

Coquette         pubescent girl

Disciples         members of cults

Dragonfly         awesome insect

Dreaming        experiences in sleep

Driving         living to drive

Frosted      daDUM...daDUM poems

Graffiti         spray painters

Holy Man         mind over body

Injection     chemistry and behavior

Invasion         illegal immigration

Offering         Cain and Abel

Pathogen         exotic vectors

Placenta         love spent

President         Clinton

Princess         Diana off Wales

Rainbow         glorious display

Roadsters         road warriors

Roots         uprooted tree

Screamers         societal hysteria

      Screenings      violence in movies and TV

Sexing         chemical enablers

Siege Engines  gasoline engine noise

Soliloquies         solitary declarant

Strawberries         gustatory treat

Strings         string theory

Trinity         three-in-one God


Bibee

I got no bibee, so I pray God for bibee

My man give me good lovin but no bibee

I pray God give some nice bibee inside me

For long time now I pray God but still no bibee

So I go to old shamdrake medicine man and

He grind up some mandrake roots and lion testes

He make me bowl of magic soup, I eat plenty

I dream about bibee but still got no bibee

Now I pray God tell me how I get my bibee

God tell me look for nice man wearing long white coat

I look and look for long time and then look some more

I pray God tell me where nice man in long white coat

God tell me nice man wearing white coat is doctor

God tell me white coat doctor live in hospital

I find white coat doctor and he give me bibee

Now I so happy my God give me some bibee

But doctor say too many bibee inside me

He say he need take out some of my 10 bibee

I say no never! God give me my 10 bibee

God tell me He take care of all my 10 bibee.

(Bibee was prompted by fertility drugs overloading healthcare and population.)

4Mar99

Boxers

Wearing black and blue trunks, the title contender

His record 40 wins and only 2 losses

Wearing gold and white trunks, the young journeyman

His record 11 wins, 1 loss, and 1 draw

Round 1 bell rings, the boxers meet at center ring

Touching gloves the fight begins and they dance
             around

Scowling at each other, pomping menacingly

With body fakes, feinting, and throwing punches

In early rounds feeling out each other's styles with

Darting jabs, tentative crosses, some haymakers

In later rounds they mix it up with direct hits.

To fell a tree you must begin cutting its trunk

So the contender now attacks with body blows

Maneuvering the journeyman against the ropes

The journeyman does the old rope-a-dope trick but

The wily contender's punches keeps him pinned there

Throwing a flurry of wild swings and direct hits

Then a vicious right cross rips open his eyebrow

Blood gushing over the journeyman's eye and face

The referee steps in as the bell ends round 6

In the journeyman's corner, practiced commotion

The cut man works feverishly stanching the gash

Cornermen rush out toweling blood from the ring's
       floor

The doctor shines his penlight at the jagged gash

And as the TV camera zooms in on it

Visible through 3 layers of ripped open skin

Is the journeyman's magnified white frontal bone.

At the round 7 bell the repaired journeyman

Slowly stands and is pushed out by his cornermen

The contender moves in stalking his wounded prey

Increasing his high point score with more direct hits

Each hit sending the journeyman's head sweat flying

Another direct hit on the cut and more blood

Boxers are blood spattered like a Pollock painting

The referee stops the fight, beckons the doctor

The doctor shines his penlight, the fight continues

To the obvious satisfaction of voyeurs

Ladies and gentlemen sitting in the front row.

Forced onto ropes again the injured journeyman

Is pummeled like a big black leather punching bag

More direct hits swivel his head like punching vane

Then kidney punches and punches below the belt

And when the journeyman doubles over in pain

The contender throws an uppercut dropping him

The packed Colosseum crowd roars its approval

At the 8 count the fallen journeyman rises

And leaning against ropes, arms drooping, defenseless

The wily contender now moves in for the kill

Right crosses, left crosses, haymakers behind ears

He punches the journeyman's face to grotesquery

Ahead on points the contender has already won

Referee stop the fight, will someone, STOP THE FIGHT!

But the promoted setup slaughter continues

Bloodied defeated the stouthearted journeyman

Retains self esteem with gluons of strong courage

Valiantly enduring a beating through 10 rounds

He is saved from punchicide by the final bell

Punch drunk he staggers zigzag to the wrong corner.

Proclaimed unanimous winner the contender

Makes his courtesy call consoling the loser

In the ring's postfight crowd the sleazy promoter

Congratulates the winner and crossing the ring

Gives the loser most pretentious encouragement.

(Boxers was prompted by sleazy promoters setting up fights with mismatched boxers.)

30Mar99

 Bride

1.

She is the one whose beautiful street look evokes

From rejected daters a thousand doleful sighs

The she whose circuitry in frontal lobes pulses Christ

He who promises heaven's eternal rewards

Who postulates great love in self denial and

True love in submission and mortification

High convent gates swing open admitting her as

Postulant for Christ's virtual reality.

2.

From stained glass windows saints reach out blessing her and

Devoutly refract sunlight for its conversion

From white light to diffuse spectral diversity

Spreading on a naked altar its warm colors

Coming upon covering the radiant bride

Adorned in white wedding dress with veiled face and head

Crowned by garland of rose buds and orange blossoms

The floral crown consecrating the trembling teen,

Kneeling at feet of the lifelike crucified Christ

The committed bride beholds her intended groom

Who with agate eyes looks down upon His new bride

From His wrist a nail fashions her gold wedding band

For naive bride of promised mystical marriage

For wife in the habit of wimpled coverture.

Confirming self denial she freely proclaims

Vows of chastity, obedience, poverty

Chastity refraining from sexual habits

Obedience for entitlement to heaven

Poverty to receive support from charity

Offering her hand she accepts the wedding ring

Washes the plaster cast pedicured feet of Christ

And then lifting her veil stoops to kiss His cleansed feet

The Bride of Christ commencing with BC degree

Rejects her certified name for married name and

Submitting to Christolatry rejoices at

The chanting charivari of nunnery choir

Her virtual marriage consummated the new

Bride servant is welcomed by polygamous Christ

Divine custodian of her downcast eyes and

Bonding with Christ her husband in absentia

Separation becomes the marital bliss of

Her delusion palliated by reflex prayers.

3.

At day's last whispering of canonical prayers

Compline keeps abeyant the coming lonely night

After the fall of its ritual protection

She retires to the damp cold stone arms of her cell

Alone on her cot the bride rotefully prays to

Her virtual markup of her absent husband

Listening to outside broadcasts of springtime matings

Restive in solitude she's witness confirming

Nature's tenacious durable power of sex

Lying there smoldering in sexual desire

Is cloistered nymph burning in vow of chastity

Her raging hormones offending and profaning

All her Aves, Glorias, and even Paters

Weakening she begs for intervention praying:

"My Lord save me from thoughts of satanic desire

Christ my husband rescue me from self defilement".

But in midnight rendezvous with secular self

She submits to nature's hierarchy commanding

Her conversion from mystical to sexual

And forsaking prayers of a sublimate mission

Solicits her handmaiden and together they

Feast at the banquet table drinking old wine and

Reminiscing revisit the forbidden zone

She offers her dewed chalice to her handmaiden

Who furtively flagellates the consenting bride

Engaged enraptured the bride climbs Jacob's ladder

Ascending in sacrilegious ecstasy to

The divine white light where neurons scream with eyes closed

To limbic system whose lewd liberation shouts

Are suppressed by sotto voce gasps of relief

From the nun moaning in flagrante delicto.

In the solitary confinement of her womb

Eggs withheld from charity of sexual love

Offered to Christ in throes of virtual mating

Her oblation satisfying the holocaust.

In the confessional of her cell she's contrite

Praying while kneeling on dry incisor chickpeas

Their intaglios tattooed in her bare bony knees

Script the painful pictographs of her sinful night

She prays standing in spread eagle crucifixion

Iron cross praying in penitential pain

Kneeling praying washing with toothbrush her cell's floor

Praying sleeping on the splintered cold hardwood floor

In subdued disgrace she weeps with the imagined

Bloody gouged eyes of virgin Santa Lucia.

Reinforcing her vows of self denial and

Starving in anorexic mortification

Poor Clare discalced and made pregnant by Paraclete

Maintains her composure in acts of contrition:

"May Christ forgive me my malicious indulgence

May Anima Christi reconsecrate my soul"

(Bride was prompted by nuns in convents.)

2Jan98

Clamming

At low tide out on a marshy salt water flat

A bronzed young man in knee deep water stooped over

With hands and arms up to elbows underwater

He groped for the mud covered succulent bivalves

Moving in practiced pattern found a bed of clams

And while filling his pouch noticed pilgrims on shore

Standing erect with muscled torso, long black hair

The Narragansett Indian beckoned to the

Starving pilgrims watching from the exposed shoreline

Welcomed they waded out joining him in the dig.

There are days when I too venture out on that flat

Feet squishing through its soft bottom putrefaction

Inhaling low tide stench of marshy nursery

Wading knee deep in salt water for likely spot

I bend over plunging my hands into the goo

My fingers groping the black Silurian slime

My body odor attracting Greenhead horse flies

Attacking me, biting, sucking my precious blood

Feeding in their food chain as I will feed on clams

But in spite of their painful bites I keep digging

Fingers excavating the clam covering muck

Digging for the retrieval of a legal clam

The razor clams are gone, as are the Indians

But quahogs survived the digging and pollution

I rinse and place each find in my patched wire basket

Adolescent littlenecks tender, succulent

Reminiscent of her sweet love long ago or

More robust young adult cherrystones and even

The fully grown large chowders whose fortified shells

Must have challenged the best of Indian shuckers

The tide coming in, I leave the stinking salt flat

With two dozen clams and attendant painful welts.

(Clamming was prompted by digging for clams in Narragansett, Rhode Island.)

12Aug98

Concert

They replace orchestral instruments with guitars

Whose metal strings vibrate for loud cacophony

Injected into plastic music molds for

Hot extrusions of boiler plate reproductions

Devoid of art noiseful pollution is designed

With bad taste covered by high fructose additive

To welfare subculture complaining with demos

Of harsh visuals, seditious monotony

Exploiting effervescent teen caprice with rap

The rap rapping death knock on the door of music.

Devoted spectators and prurient voyeurs

Looking at their punk rock stars see unimusic

See the adornments of piercing mutilation

Rings through eyebrows, ears, lips, metal balls in tongues

Camouflaged violence simulating music

They see performers writhing with body vocals

Angry transvestites moaning in musical pain

Castrato sopranos bewailing reduction

All begging for drugs to cope with their misery

Their amplified vocals are obscene outbursts of

Melodies debased to guttural frequencies

Attacking society and environment

In shameful contrast to those Asian throat singers

Exulting in mimesis of rural spirits.

Attending unimusic concerts spectators

Hypnotized by loud musical wallpaper

Enthralled by drone of melodic vacuity

And amplified guitared obscenities pro se

And ecstasy's serotonin synaptic highs

Hearers rave with repetitive template dancing

White youths surrender with white fisted hands raised high

Swaying to percussive swells like helpless seaweed

Undulating in morass of Sargasso Sea

Screaming in adoration of colored Lord Jim.

Chained Andromeda cries out for Perseus and

Music lovers long for the eerie theremin.

(Concert was prompted by music's conversion from sound to sight, from listening to viewing.)

7Apr99

Coquette

As they marched through the portal of phallic columns

The Roman conqueror restrained his legions from

Defiling the old temple of pubertal love.

1.

At his PC a descendant of that Roman

Retrieves the human genome control program and

From his brain's network collates its charged synapses

Keys them into the screen's template for love goddess

Selecting the series of base pairings messaged

For translations to charmed codons for aminos

Synthesizing long polymers obeying the

Monitoring enzymes creating she tissues.

In cellular bins of human biology

She's initialized with hormonal advantage

Prophesying the immanent beauty to be

First morphed with pubescent exuberance and then

Metamorphosed to adolescent love goddess

And internet advertized as coming woman

She's transduced from PC screen to forensic scene.

Exposed in public is the sylphic teen honey

Peachy oval face, high cheekbones kissing up to

Her dazzling cobalt blues spiced with audacity

Her tender lips wet glazed hot red subtly parted

Umber hair ends falling long titillate her breasts

Caressed to rising in tart youthful aggression

The model menarche in teen magazines is

Posed in torn tight blue jeans and revealing sweater

Displaying Mona Lisa's mysterious smile

On the avenue, farding in convertible

She gets ready for her tour of the shopping mall

Costumed in coy demeanor bawdy ingenue

Blithely cruises about in woman's artifacts

Posturing with open beak like a crow in heat

Attracting with lures those lustful ogling males whose

Dirigible thoughts make her their destination

Their ears tuned to the virgin's volunteer mewing

Hear her susurant solicitation "take me".

In passing by she's scorned by goggle-eyed women

Their social mores stunned by her naive sorcery

There she is, adolescent decoyed as woman

Raging hormones roiling in moral turpitude

With mound of pubic hair shocking naive Ruskin

Coquette makes offers with lying-in warranty.

2.

Swarming about their virgin queen are potent drones

Frottaging for frissons with pubertal coquette

Così fan tutti potents and aggressive males

Hoping to mate they build love's scaffold to heaven

He is the colorful daring one testing the

Theory of teen as facsimile woman

She is the love goddess proving her repro rights

The two recruits sucked into sexual maelstrom

Of interactive session highlighting love bits

With jockeying lips docking in sexual lock

They collapse meager prudence to a dense passion.

The night sky is now ablaze with supernovas

She fibrilates his heart calmed only by her love

Duofolding in consensual ravishment

Their destined eversions transfer haploid cells as

Aqua sexualis in profusion cascades

Out to the sea of pelagic humanity

Then passion spent, her biocavity empty

The blue-eyed minx sans tensegrity breaks away

The flighty missalette carrying pubescent

Migrating with intent towards the next mating call

Sings seduction's responsorial psalm and then

Alighting seductively spread out on twin peaks

The multimated coquette beckons Sisyphus.

She’s future queen promised to the old Arab prince

She’s prized paradigm of genetic enhancement

With application submitted for new patent

The coquette biophased for fleeting ecstasy

And once having entered heaven's gate he now finds

Its opening crack leads to social damnation.

(Coquette was prompted by sexually active pubescent girls.)

28May98

Disciples

  1.

Abram recalled that Eve had a mind of her own

That she imposed her mind upon God's omniscience

That she sinned by eating from the tree of knowledge

That she shared her knowledge with her partner Adam

Because they sinned omnipotent God punished them

Recalling those events Abram became mindless

Whatever God commanded, Abram did even

Offering up his son Isaac as holocaust

When commanded to journey to a foreign land

Abram abandoned his homeland Ur for Canaan

Abram mindful of God was the first disciple.

Isaiah was a disciple of the Lord God

John the Baptist was a disciple of Isaiah

Jesus was a disciple of John the Baptist

Jews and gentiles became disciples of Jesus

Wherever Jesus went disciples were sure to go

But Jesus Son of Man was an itinerant

Traveling from here to there preaching, miracling

Foretelling disciples of His crucifixion

They followed Him along Via Dolorosa

They saw Him crucified, His corpse wrapped in linen

Buried in a cavernous tomb with large stone door

None of the disciples saw His resurrection

But on the mountain saw and heard risen Jesus

Commanding them to make believers disciples.

2.

And disciples followed their zealot cult leader

Climbing the mountain to its mesa Masada

When their zealot ordered them to maraud they did

When ordered to harass Roman legions they did

When ordered never to surrender they agreed

When ordered to consider sacrifice they did

When ordered to lie down for slaughtering they did

Disciples lay down by family and by friend

The offerings of massive human holocaust

Then one-by-one they were dutifully dispatched

The last murderer falling on his bloodied sword

There on Masada in their temple's fortress close

Passive dependence of mindless disciples was

Converted to zealot-assisted genocide

By their mad cult leader's aggressive superself

By their own sine qua non for hero worship.

3.

And the mindless journeyed to the People's Temple

And were embraced by the advertised cult leader

Who practiced cons of fate healings and miracles

Who imposed himself on their brainscape's low profile

The mass potentiating to divinity

Converting believers to Disciples of Christ

Then they embarked on a great ark to Guyana

There he gathered his disciples in a compound

And recounting mass sacrifice at Masada

Predicted its second coming their salvation

So on the doomsday he called to his disciples

They gathered around him in the compound place where

They celebrated their communal last supper

Performing another miraculous con he

Turned pink lemonade to eucharistic sweet wine

Ritually blessed and flavored with narcotic

Dispensed to disciples their cups flowing over

Served with sun-dried Ricinus seeds frosted with death

Ordered to eat they ate and drank abundantly

Disciples dutifully ate all and drank all

Ordering them to lie down for quick salvation

They all lay down suspended in supine torpor

They waited for salvation to come upon them

They waited for the imagined glory of death

The timeless waiting, waiting for timeless rescue.

4.

In pilgrimage disciples journeyed to Waco

To hear the bearded Davidian cult leader:

"My beloved, happy am I to preach to you

And thereby share with you the glory of our Lord

Today I am going to interpret certain

Visions inscaped in the Book of Revelation.

In Hebron King David had wives and concubines

Number 6 refers to David's wives in Hebron

It was revealed 6 is an imperfect number

But that number 7 is a perfect number

So when King David journeyed to Jerusalem

He saw, conquered, and impregnated Bathsheba

Then had her husband murdered so she could be free

Then marrying her increased his wives to 7

That is why as your leader I have 7 wives.

Now King David had begetting rights with virgins

In his old age King David shivering from cold

Was given a pubertal virgin to warm him

As Davidian prophet I have the same rights

Entitling me to 7 pubertal virgins

One virgin each year over the next 7 years

Each dressed in white nightgown, gold sash, and gold necklace

White refers to purity and gold to riches

Each complemented with different color hair

You mothers will become their dressers and dyers

Your daughters' virgin blood will be offered to the Lord

And when each is with child the Lord's trumpet will blow

And when the 7th the last of them births a child

The Lord's 7 trumpets will blow in unison

The brass section playing for angels in heaven

Celebrating births of 7 Davidians

Outside this temple love is statutory rape

But in this temple love is the love of Lord God

And on judgement day only Lord God will judge us.

Last night I dreamt that I was prophesying woe

When there appeared headless riders on great horses

The riders were ATF agents wearing black

They attacked like a swarm of ravenous locusts

And the horses were Satan's tanks spewing black smoke

Rumbling over our ground splitting it asunder

Peals of deafening thunder came from their ordnance

Their battering ram destroyed walls of our temple

From searchlights descended lightning flashes of fire

Storms rained napalm hail torching us as holocaust

We were sacrificed as on Fortress Masada.

And then 7 trumpets screamed like 7 sirens

And then an angel descended from the red sky

An angel with 7 heads, each with 10 giant eyes

They burned as lasers consuming our attackers

Who fell like Babylon, glory to the Lord God.

There are 24 disciples in this temple

You number 24, is this coincidence?

Are you the 24 elders seated on thrones?

Am I the Root of David, the lamb before God?

Am I the Lamb to be slain for my prophecies"?

5.

And the disciples journeyed to Los Angeles

Dressed in purple tunics, black polyester slacks

High tech white sneakers lasted with magnetic souls

Drawn to their dormitory bunks they lay supine

With great ritual they filled paper chalices

And obedient to manifest fantasy

Drank the distilled deadly opiate wine and in

High paranormal expectation they changed to

Maverick monks with cubist faces who visioned

Superstrings vibrating in the nth dimension

Losing consciousness, they passed through the prism of death

Their souls transmitted from life were collimated

In the narrow divergence aligned for heaven

Oscillating in a chain of coherent waves

Their demented cult leader was first in deep space

Passing on the way golem dressed as Messiah

One-by-one the disciples followed their leader

Like a pod of pilot whales they chased after him

His disoriented bulbous head guides them to

Beach themselves on the exosphere’s high tidal wisps

And there gathered in a thin cloud of dust and gas

Are converted to radiation packets for

Grasping the vaporous tail of Hale-Bopp comet

Then whirling in eccentric orbit they entered

Heaven's Gate to original oblivion.

6.

And the homeless gathered around their cult leader

Inspired by smoking a joint he began preaching:

"I am poor in earthly treasures, consumer goods

But am rich in faith and spiritual treasures

Those rich in consumer goods know that more wants more

Reject these goods by mortifying your wanting

Faith is the treasure sustaining belief in God

Store all your treasures in heaven, not here on earth

The rich possess consumer goods, the poor do not

God is not rich so does not have consumer goods

Therefore God avoids the rich and nurtures the poor

Confirming on them quick access to heaven and

Upon the poorest bestowing heaven on earth

If faith in God is more than in consumer goods

God will bless and comfort you in your poverty

You will rejoice in your hearts so faithful and pure

On judgment day God will command the faithful poor

To collect bones of the rich for building follies

Of skyscraper monuments to consumer goods

If you donate your consumer goods to our cause

You will be assured entitlement to heaven

We do that which God wills because He judges best

He sends to us His will in the Holy Spirit

It comes upon us with intelligence/wisdom

Rescuing doubters and those full of ignorance

Those submitting to His will, they will be redeemed.

From the multitude appeared a heckler asking

"If genes code a will cultured by society

And you renounce your will for His will, who are you"?

Then the cult leader raising his arms responded:

"If you believe in God I will lead you to Him

Follow me as did those disciples of St. Paul".

7.

In a park appeared the unfrocked one now homeless

Climbing a bench he beckoned to passing strollers

And when they gathered around he began preaching:

"The power vested in Latin was forsaken

For the vernacular translations of scholars

Whose ordained vulgarities for Mass correctness

Are proclaimed in dialects mouthed by parish priests

Is Mass the communication for salvation?

Are dialects salvation for Mass media?

Or is living a pious life your salvation?

Addicted to offerings for their receptors

Obsessed with predictable gnawing wants they are

The narcists whose compulsions are greater than God

Whose profane orders send them on their wayward paths

Dressed as laity they convert to mundane habits

Drinking whiskey and smoking contraband Cubans

In motels fornicating with parishioners

Trappist monks listening to radios

Benedictines drunk on their B & B

Swaggering Carthusians declaiming

Priests lusting after sisters ministering

With downcast preying eyes and breast implants

Santerian quacks burning birthmarks on infants

Weeping TV evangelists confessing again.

Meanwhile rabbis argue about who is a Jew

About who are descendants of Sarah and

About side curls hanging in tight pigtail ringlets

About circumcision, dietary habits

Laundering bundles of drug dollars for shekels

Laying on of hands frottaging minor females

Messiah Jesus Jews argue with other Jews

Celebrating in the Feast of Tabernacles

The petrophiles assembled at the Wailing Wall

Praying with deferential bobbing, kissing stone

Is Torahal communication their salvation?

Who among you has need of a priest or rabbi

The one who was once your stolid third floor neighbor?

Know that God never spoke to a priest or rabbi

In scripture Abraham heard the voice of his God

So do those confessed killers waiting in death row

Their deceiving schizoid minds bossing their actions

Know that God's voice is in the minds of believers

Know that God's words issue from hallucinations

That their arguments are blowouts from E. Coli

That power, money, and sex, supersede their God

That oaths to God are broken with impunity

God is a personal read-write powered by faith.

Priests and rabbis say that God imaged us equal

Animating us with his divine energy

Teaching by parables, miracles, and mitzvahs

Exhorting from clouds and messaging by angels

Commanding us to live with love and charity

Elevating even the lowly on welfare

Baptizing the night sky with bright pyrotechnics

If all this is true then who needs interpreters?

Who needs to sit on the right knee of religion

Mouthing the ventriloquies from priests and rabbis?"

8.

And then like drones the discipled diaspora

Gathered around their cult leader to mantra the

Old axiom that superselves attract nonselves:

"When a cult leader speaks the tentative listen

When a cult leader leads the listeners follow

And when a cult leader promises paradise

His followers convert to crouching disciples".

Swarming and fawning about their cult leader's feet and

Suspended as satellites to his persona

They live only for their paranoid cult leader

Who in a seizure of manic revelation

Jumps off a cliff and his tractable disciples

Confused and confounded they follow and jump too.

(Disciples was prompted by nonselves living in the mind of their cult leader’s imagined superself.)

21Mar98

Dragonfly

1. Naiad

Long ago in Lower Permian period

Meandering slow flowing streams descended to

Pooling in lowlands creating tepid marshlands

Forming murky algal ponds and coaly black swamps

Whose ebony bottoms of stenchful muck were set

With slimy stone mosaics coalescing with

Putrefaction later redeemed as fossils and

Ageful debris anchoring gooey palisades

Whose tops rose above the mottled water surface.

Secreted there among fallen fronds of shore ferns

Lurks the large voracious aquatic predator

The partially buried dragonfly naiad with

Brown greenish body expertly camouflaged and

Bulbous abdomen syringing in and out for

Sucking water through rectal gills breathing and then

Blowing water through output gills jet propulsing

Large eyes constantly scanning for aquatic prey

When found pursuing with jet speed and approaching

Protracts its terrible collapsible mask and

Closing in with wide open labium pincers

Seizes insects, hatchlings, or small fish fodder then

Retracting slowly its prey-loaded labium

Services its sharp mouth butchering devouring

When finished the ambient naiad restores its

Folding mask until the next serial catch for

Daily sustenance in growing and maturing

In repetitive cycles of molts and instars

Is naiad ravening for metamorphosis.

2. Metamorphosis

In strong form, yielding to its biologic clock

The mature naiad predator begins fasting

Preparing for its final and transforming molt

Impulsed by nature on a balmy summer day

It swims to shore departing for new surroundings

Crawls upon a log, rock, or up a plant stem and

Under ancient orders lingers as refugee

Its wet body veil exposed to airy retreat

Slowly dries to a fragile diaphanous sac

And at the moment of immanent happening

Becomes turgid shattering its dry brittle net

Emerging transformed from the old miracle of

Order Odonata in metamorphosis.

Exposed as convoluted colored insect is

The renowned adult rainbow darner dragonfly

Now pulsing with nature's transcendent energy

Two bulging domes of compound eyes topped by blue spots

Two black bristled antennae sprout from the large head

Coupled to its multicolored sturdy thorax

Striped middorsal with colors from the rainbow that

Long ago fell linear on Permian earth.

Uncoiling a segmented and striped abdomen it

Unfolds the two sets of Insecta's longest wings

Four gossamers sun drying in prep for preflight

Now fully emerged the soft teneral adult

Completely helpless, itself vulnerable prey

Trembles in fear and quivers with each puff of wind

Remaining motionless as a twig on a branch

It rests to gain strength and confidence then begins

Stretching extending its abdomen to slender

Fluttering to exercise its four fragile wings

Practicing for its fledgling flight in bright sunlight.

3. Predation

Warily surviving preflight exercises

The fully elongated and flexed dragonfly

Clings to its transforming perch like insectal cross

Four outstretched gossamers glossed with pearly dew

Its delicate wing lace adorned with iridescence

The newly adapted adult programmed hungry

Swivels its large oval head scanning for prey with

Two geodesic domes of multifaceted lens

Calibrated for close-ups or far reconnaissance

Then zoom! it takes off with full power on demand

And with wing beats timed for high speed interception

It pounces upon a happening flying midge

Seizing with piercing spines on long flexible legs

Feeding crusher jaws working in sync with sharp teeth

Voracious appetite devouring by the chunk

Cruising for more it suddenly stops and in a

Single body length reverses direction and

Flying backward captures an escaping insect

In the morning rush the dragonfly day tripper

Commutes feeding along the way at local stops

There a black fly seeing the colossal shadow

Freezes motionless feigning still life as wall spot

But with magnifying close-up lens the dragonfly

Inspects seizes and quickly devours the black fly

Then more air-to-air hits capturing consuming

In one ravenous foray makes a series of

Air-to-air hits devouring in prey its own weight

Pigging out at midsummer's Luculan banquet

The beneficial predatory ace hunts near

The homeless feeding on their deciduous lice

Gorging for muscling up to mating potency

Older than dinosaurs and more predatory

Is orionry pursuing carnivory.

Dragonfly insect most predaceous

Capturing consuming black fly so delicious

And devours bloody mosquito so nutritious.

4. Patrolling

Bulked up the dragonfly cruises as potent male

Searching pond surface for attractive mating zone

Claiming a likely spot begins patrolling it

Zooming back and forth over the selected place

Observing with domed faceted eyes, flying with

Insect's longest biwings antiphased for max lift

Superstructured with venal articulation

Their four leading edges marked with red stigmata

Streamlined fuselage with old Odontan markings

Tapering tail assembly with double rudders.

From shore she watches her potential virile mate

Convinced she leaves her perch flying out to join him

But approaching fast is a darner intruder

Invading their intended water rendezvous

The patroller converting to interceptor

Scrambles climbing straight up towards the intruder

Above they circle making tentative passes

And then leveling off cruise in appraisal mode

From below she watches with great expectation

Suddenly full power, top speed, the fight is on!

Interceptor in hot pursuit one o'clock high

Dives with daring closure at the intruder then

In mid-air collision bursts from mandibled and

Leggery armament damage the intruder

They skim over the drink buzzing algal patches

Doing follow-the-leader in tail-nose tandem

Doing horizontal rolls, power dives, tight turns

Interweaving tactics of darning maneuvers

His silver wings shoot shards of reflected sunlight

More bursts of aggression hit the intruder and

With its mating moves precluded it flies away

Controlling the mating sky the interceptor

Confirming victory dips his tapered wings and

Makes his conquering pass over expectant she.

5. Mating

Watching waiting patiently on the waterbed

Beckoning with svelte undulating abdomen

Her hurrahs hailing her ace as mating partner

He responds buzzing flying circles around her

She follows his flight path to mating destiny

They frolic midair in sexual skirmishes

Skim the mating water doing skinny-dipping

Zigging and zagging in mating exuberance

They roll over exposing their underbellies

Falling for her hero ace she goes down in flames

As he spins out trailing her pheromone tracers

The antics of preeminent aerialists

Throwing air-to-air kisses and telepets then

Tail erect flashing to his inamorata

They partner dancing with great pilobolus leaps

He catches her midair and they come together

Engaging in ancient 69 love embrace

With cerci claspers he holds her head in bondage

Confined in sadistic ecstasy she trembles

While he transfers sperm to her depository

The two airborne lovers hover copulating

Their sexcapades translated in Kama Sutra.

With eggs fertilized they break mating embrace and

With the end of her abdomen she deposits

Thousands of eggs in the watery nursery

Patrolling he hovers protecting her labor

After their winging courtship, mating, and birthing

The mating partners weaken and collapsing die

But in the nourishing water eggs are hatching

Beginning another Odontan cycle for

Immature naiads celling predatory genes.

(Dragonfly was prompted by its awesome appearance and beneficial predation.)

18Feb98

Dreaming

Deep sleep calibrates the wave functions selecting

The search engine heuristically sorting queries

Ranking pages etched in mind's memory network

Retrieving for display the most probable dreams.

1.

In sleep I relinquishing control to my dreamons

And surrender without volition to dreaming

To restless sensory signals of dream waves and

With nature's dream control I'm escorted under

The bright canopy of corpus callosum to

The brain stem which ushers me to my reserved seat

There with eyes closed clearly see projected on my

Occipital screen the night's mystery movies

Produced by intrinsics hitting on memories

Gated through refractory neural circuitry

Creating capricious hallucinations for

Dramas produced by bending time, warping action

The recombinance of arcane and familiar

Updated for revival of old dreams or those

Newly created for feature presentation

Uncontrolled emotion raving in turbulence

Caught in chemistry of high-energy chaos.

2.

Trumpeting and mustering all my ‘she visions’

Her precessional ghost vanguarding for her self

Semaphores with body language the night's dream show

Now appearing on a supramodal catwalk

The composite model enhanced with nylon lace

A flowing cloud charged with photons and dark matter

In passing her diverse soft rays penetrate me

Swivel-hipping on the catwalk she turns and looks

The lady from pons posing, I give her my line

Responding she brazenly exhibits her mons

Smiling she whispers the exhortative "party"

But her tare weight wafted off-screen, she disappears

Yearning for her embrace, absence recalls scenes of

Virtual she in psychoactive seduction

Reappearing she gnaws walls of my glial cells

And treads on tender pubic mounds of my pole mast

Exposing probability of quantum love

Whose electrochems pump the sweet enzyme ions

Caressing her valenced ready receptor and

There penetrate with new charge the cherrystone heel

Of the slickly smoothed and tightly crevassed beauty

Now bossing the recycling of my memory

And at the bellicose moment of love's transfer

Impromptu interrupters knock on my dream door

They strap me immobile for PETting my psyche

Exposing internals that once laid upon her

Then disappearing from my visual cortex

The starlet of psychodrama exits as whore

Abandoning me in synaptic micro space.

Her limpid eyes lighthouse scan the male horizon

A man of war dares ride the last quarter high tide

Slipping on her storm battered green slimed rocky shore

Drowns and sinks to the bottom strewn with men of war

In Circean mode she keeps scanning horizon.

3.

Frustrated awake, sleep again relents to REM

Strangers open locked doors taking over my home

Intruders pass through walls and windows unbroken

When first I try shooting them my gun misfires then

When I shoot them at point blank range they keep coming

Approaching with bloodless gunshot holes they attack

With flaming torches forcing me out the back door

Surrounding me are wisps of luminous blue flames

Avoiding them I step into a stinking swamp

Escaping I fall into a brick-lined dark well

In sewer sludge gasping for air I sink deeper

Crying out for help hear a crow mocking caw-caw

Sinking falling flight 4 a.m. is going down.

Later intimate friends are transformed to unknowns

To strangers whose malicious intentions ignite

The purgatorial fires punishing me for

Losing my parked car again, losing my way home

Stranded on an abandoned highway of no rides

Searching for a way home I walk on its shoulder

Then stumbling down the embankment find a culvert

I crawl through it to the other side of nowhere

I tell my story but they do not believe me

They say my truthful statements are Aesop fables.

4.

She is the love stored in deep level memory

Retrieved in dreams by steadily imaging REM

Recreating the harvest of love's last pressing

When she passes men greet her with cherished aves

With adoring faces moonlocked and transfixed eyes

They adorn her with XY chromosome bijoux

And then salute her with raised tumblers of new wine.

Dancing to Bartok's exotic Mandarin Suite

We hold each other close and when we break I see

Her female cutting enzymatic ribozymes

Splicing and weaving its parts from female basket

To spindle converging in penile erection

With a wicked wry smile she markets deception

Displayed as recurring monster pursuing me

I run and it follows and when hiding it finds

I confront it with raised stiletto and stabbing

Its slender blade pierces a heart begging for pain.

5.

Exiting through the back door of my consciousness

I wait for rescue by deenergized brain waves

Beseeching the quick return of electricals

Whose low levels restart sleep's equilibrium

Struggling I wake from nightmare's dream paralysis.

(Dreaming was prompted by experiences imposed during sleep.)

16Jan98

Driving

After sleeping is the waking for appointments

Calculating start-stop sets for the day's driving

Getting into cars, driving, and then getting out

Starting and stopping amid pork barrel roadwork

Coping with closed lanes, road barriers, traffic lights

Steering through Olympic obstacles courses and

Driving to avoid moving violations and

Road rage fingered with obscene staccato gestures

From here to there and then back again to here the

Herky-jerky flights of restive yellow jackets

Phantom images flickering through optic nerves

Passing through closed windows road noise beating eardrums

On turnpikes, up and down ramps, around cloverleaves

Human packets of energy all in motion

Like electrons shelling atomic nuclei

Jumping from one lane to a probable other

Speeding on multilane highways are those drivers

Detouring from their repressed true meridians

Driving isogonic lanes to nowhere and back.

(Driving was prompted by people who choose to spend their time operating motor vehicles.)

26Oct98

Frosted

From locus me the path divided to east, west

One path set with metered markers, the other not

Taking the path not metered I realized that

It was harassed by unexpected obstacles

That at its end was also the other path's end

The two ending side-by-side at a barrier

A high thick wall having two adjacent closed doors

Their top halves inset with panels of frosted glass

Opaquing to unknown behind the two green doors.

Behind the right door, the shadow of a bent human

Moving with extended arm, in its hand a thing

Then was heard metered beating of a metronome

Then an old man's angry raspy voice so remote

The stamping of boiler plate slow poetic quote

Verse series droning of one and two syllables

Punctuated by a rare three-syllable word

The numbing recitation of daDUM ... daDUM.

Stepping left, standing in front of the other door

Saw no shadows behind the frosted glass panel

Heard no verse series of daDUM ... daDUM sermon

Opening the door, appraised an empty mute space

Inside a steady thought stream of what could be wrought

But knew I'd be alone without a metronome.

(Frosted was prompted by poetry made nonsensical by maintenance of the chosen meter and rhyme.)

16Sep99

Graffiti

Well fed and pampered and given spending money

They do no chores either before or after school

They are idlers who do no schoolwork or homework

And even though they flunk tests and drop out of school

Experts proclaim they have artistic emotion

That they are gifted with great hand intelligence

That their sullying graffiti is modern art

But their hand intelligence is artificial

It is the practice of a foreign subculture

Assaulting property with tall cans of spray paint

In hands of immigrant field workers revenging

The brutal and greedy patróns of their birth land

The have nots spraying rebellion upon the have's

Lawless hands doing colorful protests are the

Chromodynamics of urinary spraying

Defiling destroying our memorials with

Mortuary black devoid of any respect

And the funds for cleaning up their fulsome follies

Should be deducted from their monthly welfare checks.

(Graffiti was prompted by uncivil spray painters having no respect for private or public property.)

21Apr99

Holy Man

Abandoned long ago by his starving parents

His advances disdained by a lovely milkmaid

Renouncing most personal and worldly desires

Becoming the incarnated specter of Self

Sadhu now wears only a soiled loincloth and beads

Possessing only a water pot and trident

Travels wilderness paths praying with cadenced steps

Encounters a stream and dipping his water pot

Drinks polluted water which for him is immuned

By Hindu trinity - Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva

With these and other gods as constant companions

He follows a dusty dirt road to a village

There with water pot for alms and trident becomes

Avatar of a god mingling with devotees.

Returning to forest isolation Sadhu

A solitary squatter in a cave's entrance

Complies with vows of poverty and chastity

While fingering beads he prays to meditation

Penetrating local tangible barriers

Contemplating there the setting sun and beyond

To the deep space of Brahman's wondrous firmament

To Indra whose thousand eyes look back at him and

To the bright star Sirius barking at sinners

Calling them to the Ganges and Jumna rivers

Where they rush headlong into absolving waters

To bathe away all their accumulated sins

Perhaps be among the favored trampled to death

Thereby dying sinless in those honored waters

Survivors prepare banquets for ants and monkeys

With vermillion paint faces of cows then feed them

If you injure or kill a cow you rot in hell

But blessed are those who cut off heads of goats

And those fanatics who decapitate Moslems

Then offer the severed gory heads to Kali.

It is day, it is brain concentrate, it is night

Sadhu is deep within himself meditating

The wandering holy man becoming yogi

Master of the network controlling impulses

Disciplined mind manipulating chemistry

He is selectively comatose in a trance

Squatting on a giant pink lotus blossom floating

Reposing there as iridescent hummingbird

Depressing heartbeats to hibernate level

Then increasing heartbeats to dipole mania

Suspending breathing then hyperventilating

Flowing through the physicals of his systems and

Listening to their fluctuating frequencies

Sadhu becomes man/woman, being/nonbeing

Mind and body at one with eternal Self

Living alone in universal solitude

In impersonal ultimate reality.

First was the omnipresent essence of Brahman

From his contemplative powers came the Knowing

From the Knowing there issued the spirit of Self

From spirit of Self issued Hindu trinity

Brahma creator became karmic hydrogen

Vishnu preserver became karmic helium

Shiva destroyer became karmic lithium

And from them subsequent reincarnations

Look!

Shiva is dancing to virtual music of

+ and – whose waves play different rhythms.

(Holy Man was prompted by the mind’s control of body.)

29Sep98

Injection

In the great hall invited guests celebrate the

Silver anniversary of husband and wife

Whose true love transcends weary marriage affection

When in a lab smock a captious party crasher

Questioned the reality of their ideal love

Offering to test their love he was jeered by guests

Convinced her love was truly absolute the wife

Challenged the party crasher to prove her love false

So he injected her with 100cc.

Paralyzed midgap between sleeping and dreaming

She modulates descending to oblivion

Her sparkling eyes transform to occluding blank stare

Her winsome smile languishes in synthetic frown

And former defiance converts to submission

While high energy depresses to inertia

Her once esteemed sophisticated aloofness

Now disregarded sinks below recovery

Her alluring supple body becomes stiff while

Autistic molecules preserve her in limbo.

Guests beg her to recur but she does not respond

Does not respond to her husband's loving touches

Or react to his endearing whispers of love

Beholding her he's agape in bewilderment

Their once combined will is now her singular will

Love's reciprocal chemistry is now one way

What was once adorable is now repugnant

Embracing her he feels only her abstraction

She now ignores his skillful nuchal caresses

Love's foreplay once exciting is now insipid

Entreaty does not remedy his impotence.

Searching through the index of her expansive smile

He retrieves compressed bits of her melancholy

Trying to arouse unaware Eurydice

Orpheus finds only an autistic syndrome

The silver lover despairing at his loss weeps

Depressed celebratory guests also weep and

Even the smiling sedentary Buddha weeps.

(Injection was prompted by chemistry controlling our bodies.)

6Jan98

Invasion

The Indian campesino Juan Diego

Deeply inhaling marihuana for 3 days

Sees incarnate the Virgin of Guadalupe

The supernal virgin approaching commands him

"Juan go to America, compensate for gold

Pillaged from Mexico by ravager Cortez".

In campaigns of incursive effrontery

Flowing to deluge through porous southern borders

Or floating on rolling tidal swells of high seas

The meek heirs of the third world invade el norte

Ignoring our laws, sovereignty, and warnings

Unskilled millions of poor easily penetrate

Unprotected superpower America

Getting revenge by settling in America

Doing to it that which the Spanish did to them.

Juan and Maria crossing over "sin frontera"

Their inexorable northward migration is

Welcomed by socialists rewarding invaders

With prized welfare checks trading trespass for votes and

Bestowing upon pregnant women invaders

Mexicaid for exuberant fecundity

Zygotes to multiple right-angle cleavages

More and more to embryonic layers of skin

To uncontrolled expansion of population

Congesting the third world road to dystopia

Increasing exponentially the census count

Stressing to morbidity schools and services

While effluent raw sewage defiles the clean sea.

While congress debates placebo restrictions

Politicians vote for party incumbency

Adding congressional districts annulling the

Constitution with enclaves of illegal voters

Proudly making Spanish their official language.

During the playing of the Stars Spangled Banner

Americans stand erect in solemn ritual

Sitting, laughing, drinking cerveza Corona

Illegals mock us shouting "Viva México"

Remember that Rome was bloated with immigrants

And that it was immigrant emperors who first

Ignored Res Romana and then abandoned Rome

Offering open roads to barbarian hordes.

(Invasion was prompted by millions of illegal immigrants from south of U.S. borders who, with impunity, continue to invade America).

4Jul98

Offering

1.

It happened the Lord reclaimed Eve's leather garments

When Adam saw her naked they had intercourse

With the Lord's help she conceived and bore a son Cain

Conceiving again bore another son Abel

Cain became a farmer and Abel a shepherd

One day while Cain was cultivating his crops and

Abel was shepherding his flock the sky darkened

A cumulus cloud descended upon them and

From it a commanding voice asked for offerings

So Cain and Abel gathered stones for an altar

Cain placed on the altar offerings from the soil

The best of his grains, vegetables, and sweet fruit

Abel slaughtered his prized firstling, rendered fat, and

Placed the carcass and bowl of fat on the altar

From the cloud was heard again the commanding voice:

"Cain's cultured offering is not acceptable

But Abel's pastoral offering pleases me"

Then the talking cloud lowered and approaching them

Became intense sunlight blinding Cain and Abel

When a blast of gale force wind blew away the cloud

The pastoral offering disappeared with it.

2.

Because the Lord had chosen Abel's offering

Cain was envious of Abel and then one day

While they worked adjacent fields Abel fell asleep

Cain rounded up Abel's firstlings and slaughtered them

Then spread their blood over the soil enriching it

So that his next offering would please the Lord God

Upon waking Abel realized what happened

Enraged, cursing, fisting his staff he attacked Cain

They struggled and in that struggle Cain slew Abel.

The next day when Cain was tilling the rich red soil

He noticed the same cloud approaching hovering

Heard again the same commanding voice inquiring:

"Cain you are farming green shoots sprouting from red soil

But Abel's flock goes unattended, where is he?"

Recounting the murderful struggle Cain declaimed:

"I offered You the best of my organic crops

Their beta carotenes, vitamins, minerals

Yet You discriminated against me choosing

Abel's blood red marbleized meat and rendered fat

Increasing LDL and heart disease and stroke

Creating tension between farmer and shepherd

Between sedentary worker and commuter

Creating a schism between my brother and me

I was the older one yet You chose the younger

Was I not the first issued from my mother's womb?"

3.

Then the cloud darkened, its commanding voice now stern:

"Because the serpent spit you from your mother's womb

Are you now raising Cain against the Almighty?

Are you sin crouching in the mind of a tiller?

You polluted pristine soil with your brother's blood

It cries out to me from the earth I created

Now the soil's produce will not be sweet but bitter

And even though your name is cognate with the plow

I alienate you from your plow and this land

I command you no longer till land you defiled

Furthermore I banish you from east of Eden

Now depart with the remainder of Abel's flock

To more easterly land called Nod, there in exile

To wander in desolation and solitude

To repent and make acceptable offerings

Search for a cave whose low entrance is marked with stones

As many stones as Abel's firstlings you slew and

There waiting inside you’ll find a nubile virgin

You will cease to wander; she will bear you a son.

(Offering was prompted by the Biblical fable Cain and Abel.)

23Jan98

Pathogen

On golden mycelial hair mold stroking wall

Climbing depositing its slimy signature

Wiping it off, it retaliates missioning

Its aerosol toxin squadrons to attack you

Then in a cold sweat, ears ringing from nausea

Gasping for air, dizzy, and disoriented

You fall unconscious to black silent suspension

Your confused neurotransmitters retreating are

Profoundly descending the ladder you once climbed

Descending to chemical cognition only

Revived, you see the faces asking for your name

Contaminated you cannot remember it

And after that you live as mobile toxic site.

In new chemical soup the latent ravager

Comes out updated to a designer toxin

With old gusto attacks the overnutrified

Rich in refined sugar and saturated fat

Latching onto you, injects its deadly toxin

Abrading your skin, killing your killer B cells

Eating in bloody blemishes of open sores

Serviced by cells of impoverished immunity

Feasting to surfeit, ingesting your energy

Omnific pathogen changes color, shape, size

Transforming itself to an unknown plantimal.

We try exterminating it but it survives

In a hot oven it withdraws to a hard cyst

Immersed in acid it sprouts flagella and swims

Drowned in bleach it turns to blue toxic zoospore

Isolated in a dry covered petri dish

It migrates ameba-like changing mass and shape

It cycles from real to virtual plantimal

To ghostly stealthy neutrino made manifest

And in its body exotic molecules code

Chemical bonds of creational treachery.

In spite of our elaborate double helix

And gene diversity for macromolecules

Simple single-cell pathogens are killing us

Lord in our humble ignorance we beseech you

Why did you create and bestow them upon us?

Do you favor the simple over the complex?

Are you punishing us for inherited wealth

Our cellular and biological riches?

(Pathogen was prompted by invisible viruses attacking, damaging, and killing us.)

3Aug99

Placenta

Without commingling mother and fetus are joined

With embracing arms of chorional enclosure

Interacting with binding umbilical tie

Sustaining fetal life with librating process

Inputting digested food and her oxygen

Outputting fetal carbon dioxide and waste

Even in hard times of personal malfunction

She creates the care inhibiting expulsion

Till timely maturation compels the fetus

To exit through the now open bony suture

And after 9 months of dedicated support

Rather than extrapolate the value of love spent

To potential for new life the placenta is

Is discarded and abandoned like useless trash.

(Placenta was prompted by the life sustaining vascular organ discarded after birth.)

13Aug99

President

1.

He is composed by contrived polls configured for

Correct politician animated to vane

Swinging wildly in gusts of public opinion

Steadying at last in the strongest direction.

With cadre of dirty tricksters spinning canards

He executes with sinuous moves and head fakes

Conning naive voters who like Europeans

Clamor for more and greater government largesse

Attracting soccer moms, NAG, NOW virago tribes

He treads the news wheel weaving colorful whole cloth

Then emulating old wild west snake oil peddlers

Avenges post war northern carpetbaggers by

Reconstructing our nation from its protocols

To lawless dictatorial vulgarities.

The recessive (r) white president deferring

To devoted and dominant (R) black racists

Becomes inverted Oreo redeemer who

With camera empathy and feeling their pain

Sermons from bully pulpit proclaiming with tears

"Give me our poor minorities and illegals

I will succor them with more promises of aids

They will inherit America the diverse".

Pacifying and stroking he prophesies as

Villainous Iago lying to Othello.

Eluding duty the president encounters

The eager young female intern and together

They furtively cruise White House hallways searching for

A secret alcove, fortuitous rendezvous

Where they reprise di nuovo their plaintiff May song

In matinee performance frolic in prelude

To lovers' pastorale "Afternoon of a Faun"

Featuring the swell organ with labial pipes

Moaning intro, adagio incited to

Andante passioned to allegro assai

To finale molto esspressivo and the

Whispering denouement of unequal voices.

2.

Opposers of the president's behavior claim:

"This nation conflicted by wavering mores

Is engaged in a great ethical argument

Examining whether a sitting president

May at the discretion of his lewd vagary

Violate with impunity his affirmed oath

By obstructing a judicial procedure and

By gratifying his rampant sexual wants

Doing illicit sex in the Oval Office

And under oath questioned about l'affaire he lied

And then covered up that lie with many more lies".

Supporters of the grotesque apostasy argue:

"That the consenting act between Adam and Eve

And pursuit of happiness especially when

Combined with sexual privacy establish

Priority over law and social duty

Subordinating both to pesky carnal wants

Whose hot compulsions overrule jurisprudence

That sex is a matter of multiple choice and

That choosing illicit sex is a personal act

Neither oppressing nor damaging the nation

That lying about l'affaire was justified to

Spin a protective web around his family

Leaving inviolable the president's sworn oath

Precluding therefore procedures for impeachment".

3.

The intractable brat grown scornful of morals

The president comparted by color and sex

Is now the white and black checkerboard androgyne

The white executive and black Wanton Willy

Looks like a man but jogs and emotes like woman

Their interaction creating the Slick Willy

The Merlin graduate who for his own pleasure

Deceives his family, his staff, the public, and

As husband, father, and lecherer proclaims that

He does not know the meanings of words "is" and "sex"

He is presidential hypocrite with aplomb

Who on network TV and with crook'd forefinger

Points directly at viewers and lies cum laude

Biting his lower lip lies summa cum laude

He is Judas kissing the lips of Jesus or

Catiline masquerading as bold Cicero.

Chuckling with fondling executive privilege

Grinning like used car salesman, bawls convincingly:

"Rabid Republicans in the House may impeach

But I've counted votes in the Senate and in our

Democracy, unlike a dictatorship, votes count

In this case truth is pawned until redeemed by vote".

Outraged opponents allege that the president

Obstructed justice and committed perjury

And to the best of his ability did then

Preserve, protect, and defend himself against the

Defenses of weak women whom he assaulted

Women now living incognito and hiding

Fearing his White House secret Praetorian Guard.

Virtuous opponents furthermore allege that

He is the front desk clerk of a short-stay motel

Renting for his own profit our Lincoln bedroom

Ringing hi-tech bells from his dark campaign kiosk

Barking with feeling his treasonous simony

For eliciting contributions from Chinese.

4.

He rides bareback the democratic headstrong ass

Stanced catatonic amid a high narrow bridge

It pomps in tantrum with raucous heehaw! heehaw!

He incites road rage in drivers trying to cross

From perjury and obstruction to removal.

He is destroyer, stonewaller, and onanist

Prevaricator taking evasive action

The narcist accruing to glaring arrogance

He is the impeached rake begging for bland censure

The church-going Bible-carrying president

Catechized by men of the cloth whose cowardice

Applies scriptured burning coals purging virtue from

Sermonizing lips proclaiming from pulpits their

Conversion from religious to civil doctrine

With shepard’s compassion their judicious silence

Tacitly forgives the serial carnal sins

And transgressions of trust by the lawless bully

Confirmed smug liar sitting in his stinking pew

Teflon president with piano roll rep sheet

Renowned for epic apologetic mantras.

Outside it's a White House but inside it's black hell

Administered by presidential malfeasance

His staffers leak to those supportive reporters

Whose empathy edits out scarlet from scandal,

Bribed by White House phone calls, and galas, and dinners

Buttressing TV anchors and reporters are

Rewarded with a lifetime supply of tissues

To clean their penetrating brown-nose reporting.

Also surrendering to polls are senators

Reposing like megalith heads in the desert

Stern and silent stonewalls in the tawdry crossfire

Defaced by cowardice and incumbent status

They nullify the impeachment trial of the

Arrogant, intransigent, reckless president

Defending to acquittal the indefensible

Justice does not derive from law or righteousness

It derives from those high few sitting in judgement.

On White House lawn the smug sleazy president is

Self-stroking peacock showing spread tail coverts

With contrite demeanor struggling to repress gloating

The great con man of political ways and means

Reads his summary statement solemnly affirming:

"Today let's pledge ourselves to merit badge duty".

5.

Acquitted the vainglorious president now

Parties effusively as Nero musician

Playing the saxophone while dodging streamers and

Under the rain of confetti beats bongo drums

Chug-a-lugs bourbon, puffs on a Cuban cigar

Its smoke rising to the Oval Office ceiling

There easily coalescing with corruption

Hail to the chief! the toady one with cold slimed skin

The most devious and corrupt of presidents

Look!

In Gilbert Stuart's great painting Washington weeps.

(President was prompted by con man W. J. Clinton.)

10Feb99

Princess

1.

She is there in the bedroom of her mean marriage

Coping with her abandonment and depression

Her visceral desires manifested in the

Adoration of adulterous madonna

Outing from divorce to self celebration and

Under the influence of PR happenings

Forsakes Vesta's hearth to nurture her orphaned heart

Doing nunnery fasting then Roman feasting

Pigging out then fleeing to vomitorium

Is bouffant blonde crowned with tear drop tiara and

Cara bare shoulders dropped to cleavage and slit skirt

In haute couture of high pounds lost to charity

Her follied body adorned with jewels becomes

Royal model affirmed by photo op schedule

With public frenzy lensed for celebrity she

Treks through crowds roiling at train stations and airports

And after seducing paparazzi cries "No"!

Censuring invasive probes from camera strobes

Jetéing from privacy to publicity

Visiting many but ministering to none

Then escaping from paparazzi she replays

St. Ursula killed with her fleeing companions

Now she's gone consumed by a media black hole

Long live the dead princess on tabloid front pages

With high point bolding of condolences for the

Princess under lens served for hungry public

Weeping at the loss of their pulped-up heroine.

2.

Women no longer dress her in Versace gowns

Or sunbathe beside her on Caribbean isles

Or mimic the soughing mew of her love making

Then gossip about it in camera klatches

Longing for their date in absentia men lament

Losing trysting rights in love cabins of plush yachts

For pleasure going down with her designer gown

For the stirruped legs of the royal succubus

They program the fantasy of mock intercourse.

In addled emotion of heroine worship

The spectacle of fans living celebrity

Relinquishing their common personas for hers

They cawcus for public worship of their princess

Devoted to her, purge themselves of themselves

Living for her, in her, through her, all about her

Lugubrious fans auditioning for TV

Weep in public at the demise of their princess

Mimicking the mawkish exhibition of those

North Korean professional mourners wailing

Hysterically at the death of their leader

The tyrant whose doles sustained their dependant lives

Grounding themselves in abject mortification

Acting out the learned compulsions of brainwashing.

Travel agents sell day tours to her moated grave

Where paparazzi pay just to photograph it

Where devotees resurrect their fond memories

And make offerings of memorial bouquets.

(Princess was prompted by the death of Diana, Princess of Wales.)

15Sep97

Rainbow

In summer's after-rain misting vaporizing

Dissipating in a clearing sky exposes

The goddess Iris with her multicolored bow

Shooting arrows of sunlight at water droplets

Piercing their thin membranes whose passive resistance

Bends sunlight downward to droplets' opposite sides

Their concave mirrors reflect the bent sunlight to

Liquid prisms splitting it to waveforms exiting

With diffraction to sunlight's visible spectrum

Tingeing the sky with a message from Olympus

Narrowly broadcast in soft osmotic layers

Arrayed arching for rainbow's chromatic colors

Red, orange, yellow, green, cyan, blue, violet

Red band arching outside, violet band inside

And close observation reveals that there is a

A second dim rainbow whose ghostly arching bands are

Mirror images of the primary rainbow

With color reversals from violet to red

What a great retinal treat for my cones and rods!

At my back, setting sun on the horizon

Projects a circle hovering above earth

Overwhelmed by its chromodynamic display

And perceiving Iris' mysterious raiment

I genuflect with reverential proofs awe and joy.

(Rainbow was inspired by its extraordinarily colorful and enigmatic display.)

26Apr99

Roadsters

1.

It came to pass that on Pentecostal Sunday

The sky darkened, thunder shook the earth, and lightning

Struck him with burning jolts of the Holy Spirit

Charging cerebral hemispheres with electrum

Generating in both sides electrical storms

Surging to create the babble of multitudes

Many possessed by God declaimed in tongue and their

Synaptic seizures symptomed by loud crossfire were

Subdued by angelic decryption of God's will

Commanding the victimized to spread the good news

The commandments of the messiah Jesus Christ

Promises to believers of loving welfare

Of purification through remission of sin

And upon death resurrection in his heaven

And so it was the apostle took to the road

Provisioned with determined faith, backpack, and staff

He spread in serial marathons the good news

Throughout Asia, Greece, and also in haughty Rome

Preaching faith in promises of intervention

And for converts to the faith future redemption

On the road faith was repeated as hearsay prayers

Scriptured to devotional rote of religion.

2.

Strolling in the road's shoulder his back to traffic

Thumbing for a ride to anywhere to nowhere

Is the hippie hitchhiker with backpack and beard

Compulsed for constant movement he arrives to leave

Being on the road he escapes from himself in

Opiate cycles of arrivals/departures

Escaping from the constancy of your mores

Accompanied by the fugitive in his mind

He wanders over highways instead of deserts

His wandering mind bypassing bad memories

Unbathed and unkempt depressed to a foul odor

The discarded sad sack moves closer to traffic

Straddling the white line deciding which way to step

Is hippie with Jesus beard begging the Father

Without looking back steps into the traffic lane

Then horns blowing and cars swerving in close drivebys

He steps back onto the shoulder and off the road

To a grassy croft and there weeps in solitude

Moaning in soothing tones of Gregorian chant

While attendant crows applaud in strident cawcus

There in nature's confessional prays for rescue

By the driver who will take him to paradise

The driver who will redeem him from the highway.

(Roadsters was prompted by those compulsed to be on the road.)

2Oct98

Roots

Once more fierce polar flows sweep down descending

With leonine fury upon New England spring

Pouncing down on it with flakes of ponderous snow

Layer upon layer weighting down its stout trees

With a white winter blanket ladened with wet snow

At first a few inches, later 6 then 8 inches

Stressed beyond tolerance can be heard the groaning

Complaints of branches cracking, breaking, and falling

Snapping power lines, some shorting in blue fireballs

Their long needles latticing snow, pine tree branches

Crack and split then submitting to gravity fall

All over the thawing ground and roads are scattered

The ligneous bones of March's lion kill and

Tall trees uprooted by their top-heavy white crowns.

Nearby a tulip tree toppled into the pond

Its once towering trunk now the long bridge between

Its uprooted land half and crown half in water

The winter silhouette of its high bouffant crown

Is now a lowly half crown swimming in water

Balanced by an uprooted mat 10 feet across

Its exposed feeder roots and fragile hair roots are

Drying hardening in frigid March wind the roots

Look like fossilized fingers of Italian Ice Man

Later official springtime's warm nourishing days

Invigorate the floating skeletal half crown

Can those nubs be buds about to sprout and flower?

Look!

It's alive! the Frankenstein half crown is blooming

Showing broad green tulip leaves making me wonder

If later there will be soft yellow tulip pods?

The half crown having abandoned ancestral roots

Is coping, living in its present condition

So who needs roots, who needs those dead roots of the past?

(Roots was prompted by the tulip tree that fell into the nearby pond during the Connecticut storm 15Mar99.)

27Mar99

Screamers

From solitary confinement in mother's womb

From the painful extraction to the first viewing

Screaming at the spectacle of public exposure.

When street culture attempts to come in from the cold

Trying to make it, aware of incompetence

Screaming to release fears of impending failure.

The English disadvantaged they too are screaming

Screaming with frustration because of failing grades

Screaming with joy when they're socially promoted

In college screaming because they can't read or write.

Unable to stop government debit spending

The X-generation screams in mournful chorus

Screaming at vanishing social security.

Screaming that healthcare is defrauding medicare

That nurse pretenders stick them with blunt used needles

Injecting them with drug resistant pathogens.

Screaming that union corruption costs consumers

That barratrous union bosses are strike makers

That strikers greedy for power walk picket lines

Displaying antics auditioning for TV.

Screaming that academy-graduated cops

In fits of rage brutalize innocent people

Mauling and murdering with choke holds and gunfire.

Screaming that broadway plays are all about staging

That Hollywood movies are computer cartoons

That TV programs shoot dumb-dumb scenes at viewers.

Crying dishevelled she's screaming he date-raped her

He's screaming that she gave him genital herpes

Two howlers screaming from the jungle canopy.

Unable to react rationally they scream

Or unable to speak coherently they scream

Screaming at every vexation, titillation

Screaming with all their attendant hysteria

They are screamers of their own insecurity.

(Screamers was prompted by the societal hysteria of young adults.)

26Oct98

Screenings

They see it on Hollywood's panoramic screens

They see it on TV's smaller intimate screens

They see it on the internet's computer screens

They - are the emulators of pixeled killers

It - is our nation's bad manners and decadence

Shown in dehumanizing TV and Movies.

1.

Screenings of Colosseum revivals display

The human model morphed to brute phenotype in

Wild sprees of gratuitous anger gone berserk

Sponsors of slaughter selling with impunity

Terminators murdering with assault weapons

Slaying with swords and butchering with machetes

While criminals and drug lords become the mentors

Counselling impressionable adolescents

On dangerous paths to evil activities

Blowing away unsuspecting handy classmates

To the constant droning background of gangster rap

From deep rooted bodies mutilated with gold

Their mocking talk music missioning subculture

Their vacuous lyrics of minority rap

Pounding like Gestapo on majority doors.

2.

In sprawling crowded mall the boy toddler is lost

Stalked by two young boys seduced by the screenings of

Hyperactive satanic games, mayhem, murder

Smiling they approach the toddler with outstretched hands

Abandoned confused the toddler gives his hand to

Guardians of his temporary custody

The handing three stroll leisurely to railroad tracks

Stopping at the place called Calvary Crossing and

There the youths act out mimicking their screen heroes

One casts the first stone then the other casts a stone

Their catapult arms stoning the helpless toddler

Coloring him all over black, blue, and bloody

Stoned to a grounded heap the desperate toddler’s

Frantic cries are broadcast to heaven's empty space

With childish mewing begs for his mom and mercy

Ignoring his plea one apprentice murderer

Picks up a discarded rusted iron bar and

Pummels the crouching, defenseless, moaning toddler

Stunning to coma, breaking, squashing to expose

Pediatric muscle, sinew, his white bone and

Cerebroid billows oozing through rift skull fractures

Juggernaut crushing the grounded kidnabbed toddler

Excited with thrill genes turned high the other youth

Picks up iron spikes for stigmatizing the toddler

Piercing in abundance his hands and feet and side

Abandoned by God, angels, and even St. Vaast

Toddler died the lack of fortuitous rescue

Even the smallest of them all, they slaughtered him

By Calvary Crossing they killed God's anointed

Witnessed by a roiling dark sky whose gray clouds wept

Weeping when the crossed Jesus implored the Father

Rachel weeping for the want of her own children

Lamentation for the massacred innocent

Small as he was his murderers took mementos

Behold the lions tearing apart the carcass

Offering rendered parts as human holocaust

In screenings of society in transition

From virtual to manifest reality.

3.

There lies the amorphous little boy lost toddler

His corpse near a heap of bloody stones topped by a

Cross of bloody iron spikes the scene marked by a

Bloody iron bar stuck with bits of flesh and hair

Hateful memorials to the slaughtered toddler

Outraged distraught perplexed we cry out pondering

"How could anyone do that? Why did they do that?"

Some blame absent working parents and single moms

Schools corrupted by tenure and teachers' unions

While others blame God's indifference to our lives

Hollywood movies, TV, the internet and

Those substitute teachers, electronic blackboards

Experts report that "it's only entertainment"

Moralists complain about prurient content

About the screenings of sexual fantasies

Disguised as reality for naive viewers

Wallowing in porno waters of "Clara's Creek"

Ethicists complain about boardroom moguls whose

Perks plan corporate deception for sales campaigns

Extrapolating market research in cabals

Designed for the subliminal entrapment of

Preschool consumers whose capricious wantings for

The plethora of advertised items persuade

Indulgent parents to yield in resurrecting

Their memories of infantile exuberance

And in paying off feelings of guilt they confirm

Their addiction to those high-profit offerings

The monetary molestation of children

Created by Disney's insatiable greed

Garnished with animation and glitzy theme parks

Which market fake tulip bulbs from the Netherlands.

4.

In the common bondage of sex and violence

Those who know blame screenings for catalyzing

Chemistry overloading memory circuits

Of copiers whose neural networks are energized

By depraved producers and directors and those

Screen writers of vulgar copycat graffiti

Their lustful receptors clamoring for surfeit

Of vicarious sex, more sleaze, more violence

Their satanic follies then grossly rewarded

By the celebrated investiture Oscars.

First was the producer of the tree of knowledge

Its pleasing fruit beckoned to Eve who picked and ate

First were producers and directors of screenings

They beckoned the frustrated who saw and acted.

(Screenings was prompted by the boy toddler who was savagely murdered in England by two young boys.)

2Mar98

Sexing

Sexual things erupted from supernovas

Spewing in nature their biologic debris

+ and - dipoles migrating melding for

Organics evolving with conjugation

To the bliss of sweet aromatics lingering

In double bonds resonating between sexers

But sex's fickle valences beckon bonding

To loose partners cruising for potential action.

At her approach he oscillates while orbiting

The body housing beautiful proteins in genes

Whose tightly packed oscillations solicit love

Her light active mirror image blinds him as he

Falls for her rotating first clock and then counter

In the furnace of their sexual exchanges

He is still magnetic and she permeable

Resonating with hormonal messages and

Collating molecules for intimate feelings

They act out selfish bonds of sexing chemistry

With parted lips the she catalyst caresses

His embryonic stem cell growing for output

Then prized anatomical parts most deadly are

Gorged with libidinous blood as they embrace with

Ardor enhanced by synthetic dalliances

Made by whispers of visceral pizzicati

As neural receptors vibrate expectantly

Animating hedonistic synapses for

Titillations exciting concealed septum deeps

Sex makes linear their multiphased phosphate bonds

Energizing ADP to ATP as

DNA bases solicit for complements

In the chemical orgy encoding acids.

Laying colorful pousse-cafe may derange sweets

To mutations whose maturations insure the

Diversity retrieving spurious sex hits:

Macho men contending with contrary women

Whose chemical perversions conduce for higher

Defiance begging for greater abusive thrills

In the sex continuum of males and females

Repeating original annihilation,

Domineering dykes brutalizing femme lovers

Aggressive homos pounding on their gay partners,

And those sailing with both square and schooner rigging

Opposites merged in a twilight compound fetus

Its two differentials growing to a she/he

Their perpetual passions amalgamate for

Androgynous sexers moaning in zwitterland.

But now she has no eggs and his sperm reached its term

While reminiscing about his sperms and her eggs

Others in donorship manipulate sex cells

Claiming lawful rights of chromosomal repro

Output by penile pipettes for transgenic sex

The sexual mating in a lab petri dish

For quick clinical gestation in a lab womb.

(Sexing was prompted by its chemical enablers.)

1Apr98

Siege Engines

On offense is the blitzkrieg of noise polluters

Advancing affronting with high bel pestilence

The constant cannonades of combusting fuel

Backhoes, cats, compressors, mowers, trucks, more trucks

Heap big engine noises polluting the suburbs

Base frequencies of thunderous detonations

Wave me attacking with auditory assault

Invading profaning my peaceful retirement

And the most odious offender of all is

The high-revving bombastic monster leaf blower

Its shrill wining blow-hard megabels blast my way

Dense polluting clouds of debris whose allergens

Defeat screened defenses of my patio and

Invade without resistance nasal passages

Dandering there on vibratory journeys

Exciting spasmodic blowouts of big sneezes

Hurrying inside I close doors, drapes, and windows

Wearing ear protectors I closet myself as

Balled spider, cornered rodent, hiding fugitive

But even there in my closeted confinement

Internal combustion shock waves still penetrate

Thick walled muffling defenses of my dark refuge

Assaulting me again, noli me tangere!

Preserving physicals of sanity I flee

Running on the worn path to the far pond and there

Looking into its black mirror reflecting me

Contemplation impacts on its glassine surface

Yielding shattered think bits dilating to ripples

Expanding in concentric waves migrating to

The depressed imbricated bankline whose low land

Conduits to sluiced short falls water overflows

Spilling over, diving under, churning upwhirls

Rebounding buoyant airing to roiling bubbles

The fermenting foam huddling to frothing whorls

Crowding amorphous in mothering colonies

Which separate with meandering tentacles

Whose nascent baubles are daughters breaking away

For the babbling cascading playground of naiads

Whose susurrant gossip palliates my sore eardrums,

Floating downstream baubles collapse to dark water

Emptying into the brackish cove flowing with

Calm disposition agitated only by

The deep backflows and eddies of circumspection.

Sheltered in the wooded retreat of black face pond

I recover from superbels of siege engines

So if you find no refuge from polluting noise

If noiseful melancholy is boring wormholes

In the battered self-made defenses of your mind

Do not reach like an octopus for depression

Or damage your precious eardrums instead, escape!

(Siege engines was prompted by the incessant bombardment of internal combustion engines in the suburbs.)

1Aug98

Soliloquies

1.

Resurrected from horizon east it rises

The giant nuclear fusion ball of passioned fire

Sleep vaporizing now climbs skyward with the sun

As dawn's magenta sprinkles me in Asperges

First do no harm and then wash away depression

Then do housekeeping clearing out bad memories

Removing remorse from the guiltful sprues of sin

Then do the daily dump of garbage and at last

Suppress sexual desire to velleity

For riding the 40 cycles per second wave

Whose microvolts titillate contemplative will.

In equilibrium with my + and -

In the libration of intro and extro wants

Contemplation allays my adrenal rushes

Subduing itinerant fancies to calm flow

Of rational thoughts in perceived reality

The mollified flow of philosophical thoughts

Create in my solitude a pensive retreat

Sequestered from banalities I now listen

To the campanile ringing in my inner ears

Hearing in ciliary tides its cadenced pealing

Calling my meditative will to mission with

Disciplined introversion searching for truth and

Entering the tabernacle of corpus me

Find in temporal lobes compound tongues rehearsing

Scriptured babble reducing it to the whispers

Fading out in the great vortex of consciousness

Whose whirling creates existential inquiry

Wielding Occam's razor enlarged to scimitar.

2.

You created darkness and with it anarchy

Is the background night sky the leftover darkness?

We cannot see anything in the sky's darkness

Are You hiding in the anarchy of darkness?

You created the pure light and with it order

You annealed pure light to darkness to create us

Pure light and darkness colors us with shades of gray

Sometimes we behave with the brilliance of pure light

Most times we behave with medium gray mores

But there are those who sometimes act out with darkness

Those committing ethnic cleansing and genocide

Those denying us our humble human pursuits

To gather food, to build shelter, and family.

3.

From mountain summits observing with telescopes

We search the vastness of space for Your beginning

We see brilliant wonders of Your proximity

Beyond in the 10n light-year distance we see

The fuzzy holes in Your expansive firmament

We see space in matter and in matter more space

But where are signs of Your divine radiation,

The same that converts energy to matter and

Converts superstition to genuine belief

Inspiring believers to create rituals

Whose religious fancies are spun to happenings

Rehearsed for retelling as historic events

Scriptured to fables collected in the Bible?

When we observe you through electron microscopes

Observation reveals You have been replaced by

Mysteries of giant molecules inter vivos

Chemistry transfiguring division to adult

Displayed briefly on earth's living screen and then cleared.

It's not adoration of You beating my heart

It's the systole of many Purkinge cells

Your aloofness cools my heart to pumper only

Circulating in me warm viable atoms

Later shivering in deep cold, condensed atoms

Relinquish sovereignty to accumulate

In a gelid blob commune near Kelvin zero

To a superblob of Bose-Einstein condensate

Returning me to cielo incognito

And absolute of electromag firmament.

4.

Lord You valenced carbon chains with mortality

Keeping immortality for Yourself only

And when Your breath animated clay lattices

You created man but as displeased creator

Quickly realized Your mistake and discarding man

Abandoned us to live by Your 10 commandments

Leaving us to cope with Your other creations

Stars and planets, bacteria and viruses

Now our half-lives are plagued, our full terms end in death.

Is God Your real name or just a quantum symbol

In vacuum are You pure energy with spin x

Are You virtual, real, or virtually real

Or consciousness transfigured to dimensioned space

Or ghost vaporizing from Euclid's steaming bath?

If You are flat You vanish to infinity

If spherical You end up at the starting point

If hyperbolic You are open to questions

If essence of energy Your waves rise and fall

You are like an alternating current of truth

When positive worship rises to peak in faith

But then falls negative for lack of evidence.

In our need to know we are caught in the middle

Wondering about infinite luminescence

As You wave goodbye receding into darkness

Having abandoned us, our suppositions are

Like lichens isolated on naked gray rock

Waiting for nature's revealing transformation.

5.

What is the answer to the question, what is life?

Is life that which God bestows sustained by our faith?

Is life what God gives cultured by social mores?

Believers in God confer to find the answer

Praying and invoking God they ask the question

But their mute God maintains His eternal silence

Coming to their rescue men of the cloth respond:

"Life is what God gives and takes away

Life is what God resurrects from death

Life is what the righteous man preserves

Life is what the devil takes away from you".

And then appeared Atomicus Rex proclaiming:

"Life is a photon exciting an electron

Life confirms only those invisible forces

Whose physicals are displayed on computer screens

Forces creating the stealth God of your mindsets

The purpose of life is that which the brain's network

Bestows upon awareness of inquiring minds

Today as never before you can see your God

In rainbows, x-rays, PET scans, and in MRI's

Your God is everywhere, in cells, in viruses

Interstellar gas clouds, constellations, quasars

The God you fear and revere is + and -

The cosmos is + and -

We all are parts of the cosmos

Therefore we are + and - ".

6.

Lord You made the heavens, earth, and living creatures

You gave us dominion over large animals

You made us to mate and multiply in 9 months

But You gave Your microbes dominion over us

Making them to multiply in 20 minutes

You gave us only limited immunity

Against Your thriving thesaurus of diseases

But You gave microbes immunity on demand

Even the rite of last mutantcy over drugs

Now there is super resistant bacteria

Its plundering hordes invade our weak defenses

Killing us with exotic mutant chromosomes

Whose spiteful genes eject drugs from infected cells

And with impunity eat away Your image

Lord Your apathy makes You divine delinquent.

Lord those afflicted with diseases pray to You

Praying for some of Your divine immunity

Begging for Your intercessory miracles

Such as those Your Son performed when He was on earth

But their prayers do not triumph over Your microbes

For rescue they turn to pagan gods in green coats

But those of perpetual faith still pray to You

Those conspicuous devotees kneeling in prayer

Praying for their souls and those of the departed

Reclusive monks praying to maintain their prostates

Prostrate nuns praying for periodic rescue

Professed cult leaders praying for contributions.

7.

When alive our friend claimed that the Holy Spirit

Came upon him infusing him with faith in God

That God was always in his heart and thoughts and that

God converted the Holy Spirit to constant

Radiant energy throughout the universe

Energy not found in stars, suns, or galaxies

Or flashing timed beams pulsing from distant quasars

But energy omnipotent and eternal

Spiritual quanta of divine radiance

Outside the purview of thermodynamics and

Immune from physical changes it's exempt from

Heat loss or gain and contraction or expansion.

Our longtime friend has been dead for more than 3 days

His love of God precludes him from the fires of hell

He is not in heaven because he is here, so

Let us test him for God's spiritual quanta

Let's connect him to our advanced quanta machine

Look!

No pulses on the screen, there's only static and

Only a long flat base line, not even a blip

And no corona, not even a holy ghost!

Did God redeem all his spiritual quanta

And then abandon him leaving remains only?

Was his faith only imagined sentience squirming

Its way through ancient wormholes in his consciousness?

Is spiritual quanta beyond detection

Beyond our new machine's electromag spectrum?

When alive his body was God's tabernacle

But now his corpse is livid, shriveling, rotting

Ecce homo without the presence of his God

In memoriam let's cremate his darkened corpse

And while his remains slowly burn to godless ashes

Let's measure for black body radiation to

Test for the presence of spiritual quanta.

8.

On all Saint's Day and in a meditative mood

I cast aside the masquerades of Halloween

And in scintillating aura hear a saint's voice:

"Long ago when I first approached, you turned away

Your eyes did not delight in gazing upon me

Did not see my triumph over tribulation

Did not follow me but continued your own way

And now you are alone without God our Father

Know you not the shortest route to God is through faith?

Faith in suffering and sacrificing for God

Serving God they knelt in Rome's blood soaked arena

Where Perpetua was compulsed by martyrdom

Confirming her holiness with life-ending faith

Preferring death to renunciation of God

Transcending this earthly life for heavenly life.

When the cannonade of stones crushed St. Stephen's skull

He prayed conversing with the God in his head while

Hallucinogens transported him to heaven

Go and pray in the desert's vast dark solitude

Pray yourself acceptable to God our Father

Follow St. Paul to Rome's sacred forum of shrines

Devote yourself to vestigial remains of saints.

Behold the unknown saint's reliquaried right hand

Severed by a rabid crusading Saracen

See there a saint's incased femur fractured by the

Repeated punishing blows from Roman soldiers,

They dragged St. Dorothy to this stall and chained her

They stuffed fire peppers into her body cavities

Screaming in pain she burned alive from inside out

That crock contains her unredeemed seedy remains

If you stare hard at it you'll see it still smoking

But do not touch it, devotees who did were burned,

See there the soiled tattered garments of all those saints

Who euthanized by obstinate faith starved to death,

There's the incased straw from the mattress on which lay

Virgin Mary and visiting Paraclete who

Approaching with ciborium offered the host,

That vial contains chromosomes with sainthood genes

In mortification kiss that sacred vial

May it infuse you with faith in God our Father

Remember faith is down payment for redemption.

9.

The more we research the more we find unknowing

Will the next research find divine radiation?

Will that radiation conjugate with humans

Converting us to an ageless healthful species?

We came from hydrogen bonded + and -

From coiled DNA to segmented RNA

To amino acids to polypeptide chains

From biochemical molecules to proteins

From sex cells to fertilization to zygote

Growing to somatic cells dividing multiplying

Gametic cells combining and then reducing

In the biology of vital order cells

Recreate evolved life in iterative loops

To and from fetus in eternal life cycle

Cell chemistry processed to human exposure:

We are bones, ligaments, pelvis, perineum

We are muscles, nerves, and organs in abundance

Systole pumping blood contaminated with

Exotic micro organisms, mute killers

Circulating in mainline arteries and veins

Two cranial horns still trumpet our ascendance

Brains with convolutions, fissures, ridges, all the

Cisterns, sinuses, tabernacles for hiding

Meninges vaulting cerebral vasculature

With superiors, inferiors, ventricles

Thalamus and below it hypothalamus

Neurotransmitters, receptors, and transponders

Synaptic clefts bridging for preops and postops

Transceivers for balancing mysteries of mood

Those low down monoamines making us blue with

Life asperated by misplaced polarities

Did Lord God scheme such complicated construction?

No Roman god would create such complexity

Lord if You made us were You showing off? truth is

We are not made like You but we made You like us

We are living systems in constant libration

Organized to burn energy and make copies

We process inputs to increase complexity

Attracting sexers we increase variation

We repulse known enemies and rapists but then

We yield to exotic RNA invaders

We are 10n larger than the first organism

Will our ascendants be 10n larger than we?

10.

In solitude reviewing my single-cell past

Are remnants of early attraction

The memory bits of coming together

Aggregate to outline her persona

Her outreach ciliary curls beckoning

Migrate me through soft agar to her fronded arms

Embracing me with love culture

Its rich articulation stemming me

To a deep cerebral fissure

There mounting the dream sea horse

I runaway gallop on the royal road

To the destined internal storage whose bytes

Are transduced to the formulary visuals

Creating bizarre impressions collated by

Brilliant reds, yellows, blues

Surrounding the painted lady

Gingerly descending Jacob's Staircase

On the last tread to earth, brazenly posing

The nude lingeried lady stripped of decorum

Surveys a meadow of daisies

Their white rays fractals of sun flares

Debarking to daisied carpet

Ballerina dances on daisies untrampled

To rhythms of sinusoidal waves

Whose frequent peaks spike me awake

From the troubling parasitic dream

Ingesting the emotions of a defenseless host.

11.

In solitude reposing as lotus eater

With head drooped and eyes closed, breathing lentissimo

Observe bright stars twinkling on my eyelids sky while

Silently chanting scores of lauds for ascension

From organized molecule to cell to human

To the inquiring pincering persona who

From life's inputs centrifugates gradients for

Excursions into heuristic contemplation

To circular thoughts of quanta going around

Like electrons vibrating about nuclei

To straight thoughts projected directly to a point

The particle tracks streaking on computer screens

To oblique thoughts beginning here and ending there

Acrobatics of dazzling screen inflorescence

Displayed as matterals in moments of their lives

Hidden matterals exposed for my thoughts only

Traverse my retreat beatifying me with

Controlled breathing of my respiratory chain

Requesting synthesis of the cell energy

Transporting me through all its charged intervals and

In my rote meditative inquiry retrieve

A closed loop of mitochondrial DNA

Its beaded molecules configuring woman

Carefully fingering each beaded molecule

Recite the rosary of human ascendance

Wondering which bead is the mutant molecule

Whose chemical emotion is the capricious

Recombinance of that defective DNA

Disordering the children issued from Eve's womb.

12.

Lord You know that in the 20th century

Stalin, Mao, others ignored Your commandments

By injecting clay models You once blew into

With politically correct cleansing vaccines

Their plasmids of deadly messenger RNA

Killing hundreds of millions of Your creations

Their killings deleting Your divine images

Before Your images completely disappear

Dispatch from Your heavenly army of angels

One signed with the standard SOS, Save Our Souls

Who with Your battle plan in hand will lead us to

Victory over antihuman dictators

Base humans classified homo horribilis

Ruling with repressive -cracies including

Demo-, klepto-, morto-, religio-, thugo- .

Now is the time for Elijah's second coming

For his announcement of the second Messiah

Send us Your repeater Son to save us once more

Or send us a bearded avatar Messiah

Or the belated 6,000 year Jewish one

Send us someone, anyone who can deliver.

13.

Temporal solitudes amortizing our lives

My solitaries accumulate to life's end

Summing to overflow with poetic printout:

Recalling days and nights of my solitaries

In solitude I see again late day shadows

Their transience lingering among crimson streaks

Crouching within the embacled mauves of twilight

The setting sun's low crown of supra red blushes

Paint my basilic space and color me pensive

Glanding with serotonin and incense smoking

Incorporate disciplined concentrations to

Collate the remembrances of my long journey

From one God in Asia Minor to renowned Rome

From Rome to mainland Europe to the living cell

To imagines beyond our spectrum's gamma rays

To patterns beyond the Periodic Table

To fungible energies of Lordonium

The elements of attraction and repulsion

From those intuitive thoughts clinging like oak leaves

To those theoretic thoughts confirmed by science

Creating a montage of that rational life

Revealing the mythology of a pulp Lord

Subsumed in storied memories of cult leaders

Of scriptures enhanced by the vaunted language in

Passages searching for signs of divinity

Where vast space in the universe is fractaled in

Molecules, atoms, elementary particles

Whose visuals are transformed to the bound fasces

Clearing away obstacles to superstring space

There's where your fear and joy and spirit reside

Where dwell gurus and ministers, priests and rabbis

Where they wander seeking the sulcus of Lordland

In the ineffable plasmic radiation.

14.

In my dimly lit quiet solitary space

Bypassing multitasking for single pursuit

My casual fleeting thoughts agglomerate in

Dollops binding in clusters of contemplation

Creating pensive monitors directing the

Hasty departure of vexing negative thoughts

Leaving remains of addressable memory

Accessed for retrieval of selected Christ bits

Anchored in earth the crucifixion high rises

Configuring El Greco's pole Christ towering

Ascending to billows in frontal cortex where

It searches for God's original divinity

And finding none confirms there's no divinity

Except that which physicals bestow on the mind

Which finds and then discards man's original sin

God is a commandment, custom, mitzvah, precept.

15.

Continuing in serial soliloquy

In retreat scheduled for writing solitaries

Unwelcome solicitors ring my front door bell

Its piercing intrusion disrupting solitude,

Who will mediate their social intransigence

Or be monitor of their banal campaigns or

Be intercessory of their mordant retorts?

My solitary excursion now aborted

I must choose between my wants and appeasing them

Submitting to the mores of civility

Resigning my wants I confront the intruders.

(Soliloquies was inspired by contemplation in solitude.)

20Feb99

Strawberries

Running in a meadow a berry patch rooting

Now emits its evolved rosy fruity fragrance

Confirming the prime time for picking from under

Triplet leaves the choice fruit hanging from slender stems

Whose mature swollen ends are red ripe strawberries

Sized mostly medium, some small, and a few large.

Picking a plump ripe red medium strawberry

My mouth salivates enzymes catalyzing taste

Its buds titillating in anticipation

Opening wide I crush the soft ripe strawberry

Yielding, its sweetness bursts upon my tongue's apex

Flooding its sides with balanced scant pinches of tart

I swallow its pulp and copious complex juice

Yum yummy, it's sweet but tart, it's both, it's bi

Now one for me, one for my Nantucket basket

In the kitchen rinse and remove the calyx caps

In a bowl crush, cut in half, leave the best ones whole.

Mix biscuit dough, spoon to a cookie sheet, and bake

Meanwhile put the beater paddles in the frig and

When biscuits are baked to golden brown remove them

Retrieve the cold paddles and heavy yellow cream

Add some pure vanilla, pinch of sugar, and whip

With taste buds already seduced by all the prep

You dasn't linger or do t'other so hastily

Proceed from prep to the climactic assembly:

In a shallow desert bowl place a warm biscuit

Pour over it some of the strawberry slurry

On the atoll summit rising from the red sea

Cover lavishly with dense clouds of whipped cream then

Carefully top with a strawberry finial

Discriminately spoon the strawberry shortcake

Now eat, eat with gustatory exultation

What a treat, what a desert gift for Father's Day.

(Strawberries was prompted by the superiority of native ripe strawberries over those facsimiles grown in California; those jumbo-dumbo, pink tinged, rock hard, odorless seccolents, all show outside but hollow inside like Hollywood movies.  Eating those wicked strawberries of the west is to experience taste depravity and pharyngeal trauma.)

25Jun99

Strings

When I first saw the thing flashing across my screen

It appeared the icon of a female streaker

I tried catching it at cursor speed and failing

I revved up to near light speed, catching it midscreen

There with our relative speeds the same, time stood still.

Zooming in I observed the many splendored waves

Of edificed blips rise from quantum ground of

Unified theory transmogrified to strings

Convoluted to twists, bows, knots, tori, and balls

All stringularities resonating with the

Geometric patterns of particle attributes the

Spcaetime fabric magnified to ultramicro

Its warp shuttled by vibrating strings probably

Loomed for the newly designed material of

The standard model of the new string thong worn by

The she object now generating messages.

Warping my conventional spatial demeanor

Its gravity interacting with the male force

Transduces the streaker bit to smiling model

She offers me her dark tornadic funnel cone

Reaching I'm drawn close to her event horizon

Proximity pulls me into her compressed space

Into imbedded claustrophobia where

I am contorted for exotic shaping to

Terra torus orbifolding in dark matter

Frantically I work both sides of her equation

Resolving expressions librating the equals sign

Pulled closer to the edge, uncertain of proving

My precise position, I panic in Planck length

Like a slothful paramecium I struggle

Through the foam floating on her space-time tidal swells

Hoping for a probable escape event but

Without mercy she sucks in my physicals and

In the downward massive compression of black hole

Squashes me to the unknown singularity

Of fungible renewable eternity.

(Strings was prompted by the string theory of physics.)

24Mar99

Trinity

1. Origin

First there was man's awareness and observation

Then was man's consciousness seeking its origin

Then were the probing questions and contrived answers

Abstractions divining a self-evident God

Hallucinations jolted with God's thunderbolts

Renting asunder the layer clouding heaven

Sending to earth a radiant shaft through split sky

Its transmutation manifesting the three

An old man, a young man, a ghostly thin man and

Above them was heard an awesome voice broadcasting:

"Here are the essences I call my trinity

They will be known as Father, Son, and Holy Ghost"

The voice spoke no more and there was a great silence

And when man approached to greet the new trinity

The once bright shaft dimmed and trinity disappeared

Having imagined God man then volunteered for

Notational acts defining triad conception:

Divination reveals God is invisible

That God's substance consists of divine essences

That these divine essences comprise trinity

Its parts concurrent and eternal in one God

Trinity is plurality in unity

Unity is the one Godhead of trinity.

In the names of the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

Proceeding in synchrony from God the three parts

With radiant original divinity

Are different and the same, separate and equal

No affirmative action by God need apply

For God's preferential love of a single part

But here Father does not denote paternity

As in the human pater familias and

The Son does not denote filiation also

The Holy Ghost does not denote aspiration

The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are innascent

They were not begotten by gametic union

The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not persons

Not heavenly bodies nor earthly animals

Not multiple personae disorders of God

Not personae gratae but divine essences

Now the Father is common to the Son and the

Holy Ghost is common to the Father therefore

The Holy Ghost is also common to the Son.

2. Functions

God's essences source the functions of trinity

Manifest in the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

The Father does not function alone as single

Neither Son nor Holy Ghost function as singles

In the divine synergy directed by God

Father, Son, Holy Ghost function in concert

Now the Father is manager of God's missions

In which the Son is the protagonist hero

And the Holy Ghost is infuser of spirit.

In managing missions the Father is sender

Sending together the Son and the Holy Ghost

Sending them to earth for three heavenly missions:

1. Impregnation of Mary

2. Crucifixion of Jesus

3. Resurrection of Jesus

1. When the Father sent the Son to Virgin Mary

The son blessed Mary's prophesied Messiah egg

The Holy Ghost's spirit fertilized it and in

Mary's dream Gabriel announced her pregnancy.

2. The Father sent the Son as itinerant rabbi

Named Jesus he preached and performed miracles but

When judged guilty of blasphemy was crucified

Affixed to the cross despairing, dying he called

For God's help so the Father sent the Holy Ghost

To Inspire dying Jesus with full faith in God

Jesus's supplication was later called prayer

This was the Son's first mission as Jesus Savior

3. The Father sent the Holy Ghost to dead Jesus

To reinspire his dead Son with life and faith

This was the Son's first mission as Jesus risen

And Second Coming as expected Messiah

To those few witnessing resurrected Jesus

And First Coming as the prophesied Messiah.

The Holy Ghost was sent again to inspire faith.

4. Modules

It happened that God's essences were converted

To source code assembled for the Trinity Program

Containing three modules Father, Son, Holy Ghost

Designated as modules F, S, and HG

But with the Assumption of the Virgin Mary

The Trinity Program was updated with the

Virgin Mary module VM, a fourth module

This destroyed trinity's integrity so to

Maintain integrity F was made reentrant

And VM was imbedded in reentrant F

Preserving for trinity the original

Three modules now linked and executed under

Control of the updated Trinity Program

Stored permanently in random access God core.

Global parameters in F subsume all the

Customizing variable parameters

In S and HG for processing requests for

Divine missions submitted to the new program

But old defects in God's essences created

Source code bugs generating multiple errors

In successive executions of the program

Whose persistent malfunctions inhibited F

From downloading S and HG from God to earth

Precluding mercy missions to rescue man from

The original defects in God's essences

Today in spite of program errors man endures

Coping valiantly with original defects.

5. Numbers

In numerating essences of trinity

We must use uncommon trinitarian math.

Father is 1, Son is 1, Holy Ghost is 1

1 + 1 + 1 = 3

Trinity is plurality in unity

1 + 1 + 1 = 1

Unity is plurality in trinity

1 = 1 + 1 + 1

When the Father sends the Son and the Holy Ghost

On God's divine missions we have the following

3 - 2 = 1

With only 1/3 of trinity remaining

Greedy unionized clergy now most penitent

Bargaining with Council of Faith beg for mercy:

"If not worthy of 3 parts give us at least 2

Otherwise we will renounce our holy orders".

Recall that early Christian bishops at Nicaea

Assigned to God indivisible prime number 3

Father, Son, and Holy Ghost integrated to 1

The Council of Faith solved the problem proclaiming

That the value of trinity cannot be changed

So it was redefined for summing up to 3

3 - 2 = 3

When God speaks of man He also speaks of woman

With the Assumption of the Virgin Mary the

Divine counter was bumped up 1 resulting in

3 + 1 = 4

But trinity cannot be decreased or increased

So from reentrant F God extracted VM

Converted it to virtual module VM

Transferred it to peripheral storage and there

Overwrote the seraphim address left of God.

To process VM God declared a macro and

Miracled a vinculum crown for trinity

When the Trinity Program calls the new macro

The trinity and VM modules are shown as

                _______

1 +1 +1 +1 = 4

4 is a perfect number, a four-leaf clover

But 4 violates the divine rule of 3

3 is an odd number, a trinity shamrock

By assigning module VM value 0

God declared a quick fix to the macro, now when

The program calls the fixed macro the result is

                ________

1 + 1 + 1 + 0 = 3

Maintaining the integrity of trinity.

When most Jews converted to Christianity

God patched the macro with new parameter J

Overriding VM 0 with -1

If J is found in the input data stream the

Execution of the macro transliterates

Tetragrammaton YHVH to IHS

(1 + 1 + 1 + 1) - 1 = 3

Again maintaining trinity's integrity.

Divine numbers real or virtual can be squared

As before described the program calls the macro

The first call to the macro results in 4

The sequential second call results in 3

Reordering 4 and 3 and squaring gives us

3² + 4² = G²

Here we have the right triangle proof of God squared.

It was prophesied that the new G² number

Would not be a deficient one falling through the

Sieve of Eratosthenes, to be discarded

As are sinful mortals falling from earth to hell

But would be the very prime number scribbled in

The narrow margin of Fermat's Last Theorem.

6. Conclusion

If the Father is man and the Son is woman

The Holy Ghost is animus and anima

If the Father is white and the Son is black the

Holy Ghost is the mixed gray of diversity.

In Plato's trinity - soul, intestines, liver

Soul is immortal, intestines and liver die

Destroying the integrity of trinity.

In God's trinity - Father, Son, Holy Ghost

Father, and Son, and Holy Ghost are immortal

Maintaining the integrity of trinity.

In temples of state Romans worshipped many gods

In the Godhead are Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

This 3-in-1 triad makes current believers

Pantheists in the old temple of trinity.

But God's trinity is incomprehensible

Incalculable, indivisible, and the

Divination of fungible hypostasis

Made substantive by the Cross and New Testament

Buttressed by soothing suppositories of faith

Confirming Father, Son, Holy Ghost trinity.

(Trinity was inspired by Trinitarians' contrived precepts of their God.)

7Dec97


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